Brick by Brick

 Fairly better day in terms of mental space. Went smooth. Woke up after a more than satisfactory sleep. Then I think that meditation put me in a good place for sometime. I felt so good after meditation today - one of those days when the meditation hits the sweet spot. 

Wrote just 6 pages of my first draft and ended up missing a call from someone. I called her back but the person didn't revert. I called her twice. It was a her, yes. I thought that it was a work call. Maybe a casting call. Don't know. Usually, calls without any spam tag are work related. So I just hope she calls me again tomorrow. It's one of those things that when you are working you miss a call. Won't pin too much hopes on her though whoever this her is. It's just that one work call missed feels terrible. But what can I do? I can't write and keep my phone besides. I will constantly get distracted. Let's see tomorrow.

Dad looks extremely sad since yesterday. Stressed. Obviously he is desperate for a job but there is something that is bothering him. I overheard him talking to someone last night on the phone where he sound so low that it seemed that the person on the phone was shouting at him. One of those infamous calls that used to happen a lot in the past. I am used to it. He too is obviously. 

Sometimes I wonder what a life he has had! All was going fine and one day everything changed and went into minus. The last 13 years of his life - say, the prime of his working life, his building block days - went in misery and pain and loss of dreams. I don't even know what dreams he had or has. He is one of the biggest mysteries of my life. I don't know who the hell he is as a human being. I don't even know what he thinks of me anymore. He looks like a helpless man; a supremely underconfident man. I want to write stories about my relationship with him. I feel there is so much there. Maybe I do justice in the film script I am writing. Although it appears that it's going to take quite a lot of time to get to the final draft. 

Anyway. Such is life.

I will focus on doing less every day than pressurizing to do more. Less is more helps. 

Brick by brick I will make my house one day.