Jack Ass

It's so easy for certain feelings to slip through the skin and fiddle with my mood.
And when that happens, I yearn for instant solutions. 
Then I don't understand what to do about it,
how to save myself from it;
so I get restless and agitated
and dwindle down the path of worry. 

I have one life and many desires. 
Can I fulfill all of them? 
Because I like some more than others
but I hate none. 
So will they ever get fulfilled then? 
I don't know. 

I feel like doing this,
doing that,
doing everything at the same time.
But I master none. 
So I am Jack then. 

Was attempting a poem. Doesn't sound much like one but still conveys my problem. I need to understand when to accelerate and when not to. I can't suddenly panic and hope that immediately things will be okay because they won't. For eg: I am studying copywriting, so how I can expect to get a copywriting job when I have nothing to show to them? So if I want to take it seriously I have to study first, have some material of sorts to show. But I don't want to do a job! I can't. But then should I do one considering my finances? I don't know. There are so many I don't knows in life. Maybe things will reveal themselves to me in time. I gotta stop worrying. Weirdly, I remember my depressed days. Days of poor creativity. Now, I have lots of ideas and hell lotta time. Got use it. Why am i not using it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!